Thursday, November 27, 2008

I am sorry !

Apologising doesnt mean u r wrong and the other person is right;it only means u value ur relation much more than fighting over arguments. How true,but its also true that its the one task for which people often look behind,egos come across and without our knowledge will have messed up things! I am not an exception for this....so far in my life, have done many mistakes, many unfortunate things have happened even before I realise them,also in many cases someone might have thought I have commited a crime,which I might never ever have remembered....so, I feel I want to say " I am sorry for that"....how??it feels a nice to put them in words here....not originally my idea though....strongly have felt I should do this after reading Guru's blog....so let me confess here :
1. I am sorry appa for pinching ur pockets the day I came to earth----i happened to see the hospital bills lately, and really I am an "expensive child" and u know I have continued to be the same :P
2. I am sorry amma for making ur nights sleepless when I was a kid : < 1 year....i have been told I was giving u a lot of trouble midnights asking to move me like a swing!
3. I am sorry Ajji,Geetha,Asha,Sandhya and Jayashree for the same reason as above....I have heard that my mom used to leave me with u guys to take care of-thats not my fault though!
4.I am sorry amma again for all the fights u have undergone(if u have)with others for my sake...that I might had complained tat some1 playing with me broke my toy,stole my pencil,dirtied my dress,pulled my hair,teased me,hit me, etc etc
5.I am sorry tata....I might have not spent more time with u....now I feel I have missed something,but u r not here to come back and talk to me....
6. I am sorry all my juniors at rotary, for having troubled u at times....simply asking questions, or complaining sir!
7. I am sorry Deepa, for having hit u so hard that u started crying and then I also started crying!I dont remember why i hit u,also dunno why u cried....may be it was a pain! also ,dunno why I started crying!!may be i didnt know what to do!after few minutes both of us were fine and v continue to be more than fine for even today....this was in 7th std!
8.I am sorry Prasanna,for having dirtied ur drawing sheet. u had kept under the desk and gone somewhere and I used that to clean some mud on my shoe!U came back and started crying!Even today I dunno if that drawing sheet was worth crying...nyways I am sorry for that....this was also in 7th std!
9.I am sorry Sandeep because I tore ur tie while playing..6th std or 5th?? i dont remember
10.I am sorry Varun...I used to snatch ur stickers,cricket cards collected buying chewing gums, and lock them in cup-board. Then used to make u literally beg to get them back!
11.I am sorry Madhushree for teasing u so much in 7th std!!
12.I am sorry Shruthi and Prathibha-on the farewell day of our 7th std,we 4 of us had locked the room and didnt allow u both to come in even after u knocked the door.
13.I am sorry pri for taking u on a ride on my bicycle, making u fall....and ur palm was like a tomato for atleast 15 days!
14.I am sorry Guru uncle- i had broken the photo frame which held ur daughters photo.Dunno why I strongly felt guilty at that time but couldnt apologise u
15.I am sorry Pradyumna for the scoldings u got from ur mom on holi day for playing too much. Next day i had apologised ur mom also !
16.I am sorry uncle(cant reveal the name) for not opening the door when u came at 11.40.I had locked the grills and doors and nobody in my house knew u came. U came,saw the doors locked and moved away.nice of u....but it was not nice of u to always disturb my dad at that late hour....so I didnt open the door....nyways I am sorry!
17.I am sorry old man for having hit u with my bike when u were walking....it was my fault and for that I paid more than enough for all the dramas u made as if u were dying there, even though there was not a single scratch on ur body!also again I come to see u, and u started limping the moment u saw me,and again I handed some more money!!
18.I am sorry Mr.unknown for hitting ur Luna with my activa....and u fell and I didnt even turn to see what happened.It was mistake from both of us...both were riding super fast,adding to that u were riding seeing chamundi hills! and never bothered to hear my horns and ur Luna was a super model...I doubt if it had breaks....nyways sorry!
19.I am sorry Prashali for whatever i have done/not done individually/with some1 else intentionally/unintentionally that had created uncomfortness between us.I wanted to say a sorry many times and again could not for many many reasons.glad that things are fine now!for once, I am sorry
I am also sorry for what happened in chemistry lab during our second sem....I pippeted NaOH thrice and finished titration, and all others followed me and pippeted NaOH.Unfortunately, when u pippeted,it got into ur mouth and started burning, and u had to drink some acid after that for neutralization! and after that ur lips and longue swell like hanuman for a week.I only came to know that NaOH should not be pippeted as its strength was something like 10N and what we did in PU was around 0.1 or 0.4N. Sorry !
20.I am sorry Mr.(name cant be revealed) for ignoring u so much .... u might not had any other intentions but I always got kinda irritated whenever I saw u.
21.I am sorry Prakasha mama, if only We had a lil more presense of mind, there could be chances that u would be with us today,atleast I wouldnt not feel as bad as I feel now.
22.I am sorry Aunty(name cant be revealed) again for ignoring u.But u r really irritating and its not my fault for feeling so!
23.I am sorry uncle(name cant be revealed) for not even bothering to ignore u! for u r irritating to the core....
24.I am sorry all the grocery sellers at Andolana circle....All of u want me to buy vegetables from u...thats business for u....but I can buy from only 1 and always feel like buying from the same person and u all feel bad!!
25.I am sorry all the bus-conductors of buses I daily travel....i give u 5 rs, u give back 2 rs, I give it back again and insist on giving me the ticket,thus avoiding u from stealing the 3 rs from BTS.U give me a strange look and I give back a smile! I am sorry. just wish that i dont get into ur bus. nyways these days I am not frequently travelling by bus....and u dont face this issue!
26.I apologise all my classmates who used to strive hard and pray hard to get more marks than me, but couldnt achieve that. I am sorry, now I know nothing would have changed if I had got a mark or 2 less than u ppl then.
27.I am sorry Ms....(name cant be revealed). I know u wanted only one mark more than me that too in any one test and in any one subject.But that didnt happen. If only u had told me so,I would have made sure that happens.coz we were in 10th std at this time and I already knew the value of "marks"....I was aiming only for knowledge....cough cough....too much na ;)
28.I aplogise all others of whom I have felt jealous (if I have ever, I cant recall and I think i have not )for they having scored more marks than me. I am sorry.!
29.I am sorry for all the participants who used to come for debates and essay competitions and lost prizes because of me....I know how ur teachers and parents were backing up u and u were mugging the sheet filled with points stolen from somewhere else!I know how u would see me when I used to return collecting the prize.
30. I also apologise my school and college -when u had sent me as ur representative for some competitions and I didnt provide justice owing to various reasons!lack of interest, preparation,time....over confidence,laziness,attitude....whatever!I am sorry
31.I apologise my parents for being a "trouble child" always!I am sorry
32.I apologise my friends for making them feel bad many times....by either saying something....or doing/not doing something....or keeping silent!I am sorry
33.I am sorry Ms(name cant be revealed) for being intentionally harsh/ignorant with you.You over react many times and that is why I am so....

The list continues....

ooooofff I feel a great relief!