I was supposed to say this 2 days ago i.e 28-01-09,the day on which I completed 6-months of my professional career. Laziness for blogging also!I dont know what to call this attitude!!Now what is added to my resume other than the degree is 6-months storage experience ;) Feels good!!U may be wondering what nonsense is this ! but I tell u how important 6-months is !!
When I had carelessly ignored my future plans,wrote for gbs and remained idle for the rest ofthe days,I never had thought one day I would subscribe to naukri.com,timesjobs.com what not!When the rumours went thick that gbs may delay or in worst case deny offers,some fear of insecurity peeped.Ofcourse that was also because of the concerns of parents,relatives and friends who would collect news from newspapers,tv,net and neighbours :D and then eat head with "got joining dates??","where will u be posted??","u have onsite opportunities??","my uncles sisters' sons' granddaughter was given pink slip" .... who would want to bother about all these when u would want to enjoy the last golden days of student life.
Everyday mail-box would be filled with so many openings!!!!u hit any -all they ask is min 6 months exp!!got my point ;) Now that recession has hit the market,you will understand this more clearly!At the end of the day I used to feel all those mails are spam!It was a tiring task to unsubscribe from all those seriously!
Well,I have been fortunate for so many things....and me landing at a good place without any difficulty and frustration is also one of them.But I'll never forget the long 4-hrs exhausting interview for that! The day I reported, I had 3 other offers on hand!I could only laugh at myself for worrying unnecessarily.
Whatever!so its been very good till date and I have successfully completed 6 months !Have stepped into water,so havve to swim whether somebody pushed or I fell or I came willingly is a different story!So I take this opportunity to congratulate myself and wish myself all the success for future. All the best Shubhada and congratulations!
Friday, January 30, 2009
Every year that day comes!
Some things you never forget in your life even if you want to badly throw it out of mind.Time and again it passes through ur memory and drown u in different thoughts. I actually dont want to forget that day!Jan 17th,2004 -saturday-horrible day of my life. Unexpected things happen to every1 but for me its such a shock that even today I'm not able to accept that I met with the bloody accident. I went to such a position that accepting is a different story,I couldnt realise where I was and what I was doing for a week after that!. For everybody but me,I survived was the biggest relief, and that I could write my +2 exams and cleared it was my greatest achievement.Sure, this has definitely changed my life,if only I had not met with the accident that day,I say with full confidence , I would not have been what I am today.I say I would not want to forget it because,though it has done harm to me,I see about how my life has gone after that.Pretty good,I have enjoyed every moment since then,am in a good job today,no regrets,totally in a sentence,I have not been deprived of anything called "good things".Only thing is I am nt what I wanted to be and I am what I never ever had dreamt I would be and never ever had longed to be !but I continue to be the same person with same dreams,ambitions,goals - only the preface of my "life book" has changed!the saying goes "man proposes,but god disposes"!well, again, no regrets for anything.Infact such things have made me go more philosophical at times, more mature, more challenging,what not! But still, I dont say whatever happened is for good!!what happened is actually bad - but the goodness that has come to my life has covered it so much that I could not realise and celebrate the "5th accident anniversary" on time, even when 17-01-09 was a saturday again!For the first 2 years,It was one day I would kinda mourn!Not just 5 years, it'll go to silver and gold jubilees only to look back for my fulfilled dreams every year!
Monday, January 12, 2009
My English has gone bad :(
Soooo bad....I am able to feel that....after everytime I speak,after every line I write, I am able to realise what a bad english came out of me!This is happening since 2-3 months for now....y is it so....I dont actually find reasons for my language to go bad!infact it should have been better than my engineering days,as I regularly speak english here and in college it was not the case as going to college was itself a rare event;)
Or is this just a feeling!!? may be not....the proof for its not just a feeling is the fact how I am struggling to make this sentence!!and ended up with a bad one:( oooooofff really bad!!Where might this lead to!!To what extent can this get worse!! How can I come back !!It has so happened I need to say "Once upon a time I had such a vocabulary to write essays!prepare for debates!go for elocutions!! All that seems a story now!what a good rate of deterioration!(may be I've spelt this wrong!)
Or does this happen with everyone ?? or many atleast ?? coz I have myself seen Shilpa's language going bad day by day after she started going to IBM! may be it happens with all who come to IT industry ;) as they,ok rather we take language for granted,our slangs replace the grammar!!U speak proper language or not,somehow it should reach the other end properly,thats the need of the hour here!and incidently always that happens here!I have seen many many guys speaking english terribly bad!but still their words will have made complete sense!!That is IT industry!!
Nyways but still, I need to wake up and take care of my vocabulary language whatever atleast to a certain extent!!
Or is this just a feeling!!? may be not....the proof for its not just a feeling is the fact how I am struggling to make this sentence!!and ended up with a bad one:( oooooofff really bad!!Where might this lead to!!To what extent can this get worse!! How can I come back !!It has so happened I need to say "Once upon a time I had such a vocabulary to write essays!prepare for debates!go for elocutions!! All that seems a story now!what a good rate of deterioration!(may be I've spelt this wrong!)
Or does this happen with everyone ?? or many atleast ?? coz I have myself seen Shilpa's language going bad day by day after she started going to IBM! may be it happens with all who come to IT industry ;) as they,ok rather we take language for granted,our slangs replace the grammar!!U speak proper language or not,somehow it should reach the other end properly,thats the need of the hour here!and incidently always that happens here!I have seen many many guys speaking english terribly bad!but still their words will have made complete sense!!That is IT industry!!
Nyways but still, I need to wake up and take care of my vocabulary language whatever atleast to a certain extent!!
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Smile.Thats all
Smile.Thats All! these were the words that came to my sight when I was about to signout from orkut,but just had refreshed the page.This was the message for me as todays' fortune !! To be frank, I dont agree with pros and cons of fortune,luck,fate,destiny etc etc but sometimes,rather I strongly believe that its just U who can control all of them, But still,sometimes U come across situations that takes u through a shock and a surprise and u really stand perplexed thinking is this luck or fate or neither of these !Well, i got diverted I guess,may be I have even failed here to convey what I really mean,but still let it be.nyways my blog,my wish;)Coming back,Yes even though I dont believe and also dont go by these fortunes,horoscopes,tails of sunsigns....sometimes I just cant control the curiosity to learn what it says!Bloody daily newspaper horoscopes!He writes the samething for every1 in changed order and that repeats week after week with another set of bullshit.Whatever,I tell u its real fun to read that, I have the heartiest laughter when I read it with my friends!Those stupid things,impossible possibilities!, what blunders might happen if for a day we really try to follow this and other such horoscopes and try o act according to it!I fear to imagine!All is fine when everything goes fine....unless u take all these very seriously,unless nothing goes wrong actually its okay u read or study or follow all these. But hasnt this and such other beliefs changed the lifes of so many people in our society.Its really tragic. What not people do blindly having faith in these superstitions.Unfortunately so called "educated people","middle class people","above middle class people","rich people" supposed to be the creamy layer of the society,is not an exemption to this and the disaster is they contribute much more foolishness.
Well,this is a debatable topic and will go anywhere and everywhere....yes, many many different thoughts are rushing into my head and its better if I stop writing or else will divert hopelessly!
Just to come back where I started,with curiosity I do read these daily fortunes on orkut.These days,orkutting itself has become a very rare activity,even then I make it a point to see what is there for me everytime I login! When I saw the line "Smile,Thats all", I really smiled....but that was not just a smile.I tell you,thousands of thoughts and memories had passed across my mind in that fraction of a second!A Smile can mean anything and yes really anything !!Will not get into any further detail.....
But yes,who can forget the smile on Monalisa's face!!? Whats the secret behind Monalisa's smile??you know?? You want to know?? just continue reading....
Once upon a time, our Timma was travelling in a train and the train halted for a crossing.Timma wide opened his eyes and started to watch the surrounding nature. As the train had just started to move,Timma's eyes caught the big poster that just passed,which had the painting of monalisa and below it were the words "U know the secret of Monalisa's smile??".Timma bent down,right left bt in vain....he could not see the next words on the poster and the train moved!So dissapointed was Timma that such a treasured secret slipped out of his hands....if only he had seen it a few mins before!che ! He decided,hes gonna lose something if he leaves this here and carry on....Got off at the next station, and came back running to discover th e much awaited suspense.Can u imagine Timmas plight when he really discovered the "secret"....
U know the secret of Monalisa's smile??"
.....
......
.......
"Its the magic of CLOSE-UP toothpaste ....tan tan ta dan "!!!!
Oops ;)
Well,this is a debatable topic and will go anywhere and everywhere....yes, many many different thoughts are rushing into my head and its better if I stop writing or else will divert hopelessly!
Just to come back where I started,with curiosity I do read these daily fortunes on orkut.These days,orkutting itself has become a very rare activity,even then I make it a point to see what is there for me everytime I login! When I saw the line "Smile,Thats all", I really smiled....but that was not just a smile.I tell you,thousands of thoughts and memories had passed across my mind in that fraction of a second!A Smile can mean anything and yes really anything !!Will not get into any further detail.....
But yes,who can forget the smile on Monalisa's face!!? Whats the secret behind Monalisa's smile??you know?? You want to know?? just continue reading....
Once upon a time, our Timma was travelling in a train and the train halted for a crossing.Timma wide opened his eyes and started to watch the surrounding nature. As the train had just started to move,Timma's eyes caught the big poster that just passed,which had the painting of monalisa and below it were the words "U know the secret of Monalisa's smile??".Timma bent down,right left bt in vain....he could not see the next words on the poster and the train moved!So dissapointed was Timma that such a treasured secret slipped out of his hands....if only he had seen it a few mins before!che ! He decided,hes gonna lose something if he leaves this here and carry on....Got off at the next station, and came back running to discover th e much awaited suspense.Can u imagine Timmas plight when he really discovered the "secret"....
U know the secret of Monalisa's smile??"
.....
......
.......
"Its the magic of CLOSE-UP toothpaste ....tan tan ta dan "!!!!
Oops ;)
Thursday, November 27, 2008
I am sorry !
Apologising doesnt mean u r wrong and the other person is right;it only means u value ur relation much more than fighting over arguments. How true,but its also true that its the one task for which people often look behind,egos come across and without our knowledge will have messed up things! I am not an exception for this....so far in my life, have done many mistakes, many unfortunate things have happened even before I realise them,also in many cases someone might have thought I have commited a crime,which I might never ever have remembered....so, I feel I want to say " I am sorry for that"....how??it feels a nice to put them in words here....not originally my idea though....strongly have felt I should do this after reading Guru's blog....so let me confess here :
1. I am sorry appa for pinching ur pockets the day I came to earth----i happened to see the hospital bills lately, and really I am an "expensive child" and u know I have continued to be the same :P
2. I am sorry amma for making ur nights sleepless when I was a kid : < 1 year....i have been told I was giving u a lot of trouble midnights asking to move me like a swing!
3. I am sorry Ajji,Geetha,Asha,Sandhya and Jayashree for the same reason as above....I have heard that my mom used to leave me with u guys to take care of-thats not my fault though!
4.I am sorry amma again for all the fights u have undergone(if u have)with others for my sake...that I might had complained tat some1 playing with me broke my toy,stole my pencil,dirtied my dress,pulled my hair,teased me,hit me, etc etc
5.I am sorry tata....I might have not spent more time with u....now I feel I have missed something,but u r not here to come back and talk to me....
6. I am sorry all my juniors at rotary, for having troubled u at times....simply asking questions, or complaining sir!
7. I am sorry Deepa, for having hit u so hard that u started crying and then I also started crying!I dont remember why i hit u,also dunno why u cried....may be it was a pain! also ,dunno why I started crying!!may be i didnt know what to do!after few minutes both of us were fine and v continue to be more than fine for even today....this was in 7th std!
8.I am sorry Prasanna,for having dirtied ur drawing sheet. u had kept under the desk and gone somewhere and I used that to clean some mud on my shoe!U came back and started crying!Even today I dunno if that drawing sheet was worth crying...nyways I am sorry for that....this was also in 7th std!
9.I am sorry Sandeep because I tore ur tie while playing..6th std or 5th?? i dont remember
10.I am sorry Varun...I used to snatch ur stickers,cricket cards collected buying chewing gums, and lock them in cup-board. Then used to make u literally beg to get them back!
11.I am sorry Madhushree for teasing u so much in 7th std!!
12.I am sorry Shruthi and Prathibha-on the farewell day of our 7th std,we 4 of us had locked the room and didnt allow u both to come in even after u knocked the door.
13.I am sorry pri for taking u on a ride on my bicycle, making u fall....and ur palm was like a tomato for atleast 15 days!
14.I am sorry Guru uncle- i had broken the photo frame which held ur daughters photo.Dunno why I strongly felt guilty at that time but couldnt apologise u
15.I am sorry Pradyumna for the scoldings u got from ur mom on holi day for playing too much. Next day i had apologised ur mom also !
16.I am sorry uncle(cant reveal the name) for not opening the door when u came at 11.40.I had locked the grills and doors and nobody in my house knew u came. U came,saw the doors locked and moved away.nice of u....but it was not nice of u to always disturb my dad at that late hour....so I didnt open the door....nyways I am sorry!
17.I am sorry old man for having hit u with my bike when u were walking....it was my fault and for that I paid more than enough for all the dramas u made as if u were dying there, even though there was not a single scratch on ur body!also again I come to see u, and u started limping the moment u saw me,and again I handed some more money!!
18.I am sorry Mr.unknown for hitting ur Luna with my activa....and u fell and I didnt even turn to see what happened.It was mistake from both of us...both were riding super fast,adding to that u were riding seeing chamundi hills! and never bothered to hear my horns and ur Luna was a super model...I doubt if it had breaks....nyways sorry!
19.I am sorry Prashali for whatever i have done/not done individually/with some1 else intentionally/unintentionally that had created uncomfortness between us.I wanted to say a sorry many times and again could not for many many reasons.glad that things are fine now!for once, I am sorry
I am also sorry for what happened in chemistry lab during our second sem....I pippeted NaOH thrice and finished titration, and all others followed me and pippeted NaOH.Unfortunately, when u pippeted,it got into ur mouth and started burning, and u had to drink some acid after that for neutralization! and after that ur lips and longue swell like hanuman for a week.I only came to know that NaOH should not be pippeted as its strength was something like 10N and what we did in PU was around 0.1 or 0.4N. Sorry !
20.I am sorry Mr.(name cant be revealed) for ignoring u so much .... u might not had any other intentions but I always got kinda irritated whenever I saw u.
21.I am sorry Prakasha mama, if only We had a lil more presense of mind, there could be chances that u would be with us today,atleast I wouldnt not feel as bad as I feel now.
22.I am sorry Aunty(name cant be revealed) again for ignoring u.But u r really irritating and its not my fault for feeling so!
23.I am sorry uncle(name cant be revealed) for not even bothering to ignore u! for u r irritating to the core....
24.I am sorry all the grocery sellers at Andolana circle....All of u want me to buy vegetables from u...thats business for u....but I can buy from only 1 and always feel like buying from the same person and u all feel bad!!
25.I am sorry all the bus-conductors of buses I daily travel....i give u 5 rs, u give back 2 rs, I give it back again and insist on giving me the ticket,thus avoiding u from stealing the 3 rs from BTS.U give me a strange look and I give back a smile! I am sorry. just wish that i dont get into ur bus. nyways these days I am not frequently travelling by bus....and u dont face this issue!
26.I apologise all my classmates who used to strive hard and pray hard to get more marks than me, but couldnt achieve that. I am sorry, now I know nothing would have changed if I had got a mark or 2 less than u ppl then.
27.I am sorry Ms....(name cant be revealed). I know u wanted only one mark more than me that too in any one test and in any one subject.But that didnt happen. If only u had told me so,I would have made sure that happens.coz we were in 10th std at this time and I already knew the value of "marks"....I was aiming only for knowledge....cough cough....too much na ;)
28.I aplogise all others of whom I have felt jealous (if I have ever, I cant recall and I think i have not )for they having scored more marks than me. I am sorry.!
29.I am sorry for all the participants who used to come for debates and essay competitions and lost prizes because of me....I know how ur teachers and parents were backing up u and u were mugging the sheet filled with points stolen from somewhere else!I know how u would see me when I used to return collecting the prize.
30. I also apologise my school and college -when u had sent me as ur representative for some competitions and I didnt provide justice owing to various reasons!lack of interest, preparation,time....over confidence,laziness,attitude....whatever!I am sorry
31.I apologise my parents for being a "trouble child" always!I am sorry
32.I apologise my friends for making them feel bad many times....by either saying something....or doing/not doing something....or keeping silent!I am sorry
The list continues....
ooooofff I feel a great relief!
1. I am sorry appa for pinching ur pockets the day I came to earth----i happened to see the hospital bills lately, and really I am an "expensive child" and u know I have continued to be the same :P
2. I am sorry amma for making ur nights sleepless when I was a kid : < 1 year....i have been told I was giving u a lot of trouble midnights asking to move me like a swing!
3. I am sorry Ajji,Geetha,Asha,Sandhya and Jayashree for the same reason as above....I have heard that my mom used to leave me with u guys to take care of-thats not my fault though!
4.I am sorry amma again for all the fights u have undergone(if u have)with others for my sake...that I might had complained tat some1 playing with me broke my toy,stole my pencil,dirtied my dress,pulled my hair,teased me,hit me, etc etc
5.I am sorry tata....I might have not spent more time with u....now I feel I have missed something,but u r not here to come back and talk to me....
6. I am sorry all my juniors at rotary, for having troubled u at times....simply asking questions, or complaining sir!
7. I am sorry Deepa, for having hit u so hard that u started crying and then I also started crying!I dont remember why i hit u,also dunno why u cried....may be it was a pain! also ,dunno why I started crying!!may be i didnt know what to do!after few minutes both of us were fine and v continue to be more than fine for even today....this was in 7th std!
8.I am sorry Prasanna,for having dirtied ur drawing sheet. u had kept under the desk and gone somewhere and I used that to clean some mud on my shoe!U came back and started crying!Even today I dunno if that drawing sheet was worth crying...nyways I am sorry for that....this was also in 7th std!
9.I am sorry Sandeep because I tore ur tie while playing..6th std or 5th?? i dont remember
10.I am sorry Varun...I used to snatch ur stickers,cricket cards collected buying chewing gums, and lock them in cup-board. Then used to make u literally beg to get them back!
11.I am sorry Madhushree for teasing u so much in 7th std!!
12.I am sorry Shruthi and Prathibha-on the farewell day of our 7th std,we 4 of us had locked the room and didnt allow u both to come in even after u knocked the door.
13.I am sorry pri for taking u on a ride on my bicycle, making u fall....and ur palm was like a tomato for atleast 15 days!
14.I am sorry Guru uncle- i had broken the photo frame which held ur daughters photo.Dunno why I strongly felt guilty at that time but couldnt apologise u
15.I am sorry Pradyumna for the scoldings u got from ur mom on holi day for playing too much. Next day i had apologised ur mom also !
16.I am sorry uncle(cant reveal the name) for not opening the door when u came at 11.40.I had locked the grills and doors and nobody in my house knew u came. U came,saw the doors locked and moved away.nice of u....but it was not nice of u to always disturb my dad at that late hour....so I didnt open the door....nyways I am sorry!
17.I am sorry old man for having hit u with my bike when u were walking....it was my fault and for that I paid more than enough for all the dramas u made as if u were dying there, even though there was not a single scratch on ur body!also again I come to see u, and u started limping the moment u saw me,and again I handed some more money!!
18.I am sorry Mr.unknown for hitting ur Luna with my activa....and u fell and I didnt even turn to see what happened.It was mistake from both of us...both were riding super fast,adding to that u were riding seeing chamundi hills! and never bothered to hear my horns and ur Luna was a super model...I doubt if it had breaks....nyways sorry!
19.I am sorry Prashali for whatever i have done/not done individually/with some1 else intentionally/unintentionally that had created uncomfortness between us.I wanted to say a sorry many times and again could not for many many reasons.glad that things are fine now!for once, I am sorry
I am also sorry for what happened in chemistry lab during our second sem....I pippeted NaOH thrice and finished titration, and all others followed me and pippeted NaOH.Unfortunately, when u pippeted,it got into ur mouth and started burning, and u had to drink some acid after that for neutralization! and after that ur lips and longue swell like hanuman for a week.I only came to know that NaOH should not be pippeted as its strength was something like 10N and what we did in PU was around 0.1 or 0.4N. Sorry !
20.I am sorry Mr.(name cant be revealed) for ignoring u so much .... u might not had any other intentions but I always got kinda irritated whenever I saw u.
21.I am sorry Prakasha mama, if only We had a lil more presense of mind, there could be chances that u would be with us today,atleast I wouldnt not feel as bad as I feel now.
22.I am sorry Aunty(name cant be revealed) again for ignoring u.But u r really irritating and its not my fault for feeling so!
23.I am sorry uncle(name cant be revealed) for not even bothering to ignore u! for u r irritating to the core....
24.I am sorry all the grocery sellers at Andolana circle....All of u want me to buy vegetables from u...thats business for u....but I can buy from only 1 and always feel like buying from the same person and u all feel bad!!
25.I am sorry all the bus-conductors of buses I daily travel....i give u 5 rs, u give back 2 rs, I give it back again and insist on giving me the ticket,thus avoiding u from stealing the 3 rs from BTS.U give me a strange look and I give back a smile! I am sorry. just wish that i dont get into ur bus. nyways these days I am not frequently travelling by bus....and u dont face this issue!
26.I apologise all my classmates who used to strive hard and pray hard to get more marks than me, but couldnt achieve that. I am sorry, now I know nothing would have changed if I had got a mark or 2 less than u ppl then.
27.I am sorry Ms....(name cant be revealed). I know u wanted only one mark more than me that too in any one test and in any one subject.But that didnt happen. If only u had told me so,I would have made sure that happens.coz we were in 10th std at this time and I already knew the value of "marks"....I was aiming only for knowledge....cough cough....too much na ;)
28.I aplogise all others of whom I have felt jealous (if I have ever, I cant recall and I think i have not )for they having scored more marks than me. I am sorry.!
29.I am sorry for all the participants who used to come for debates and essay competitions and lost prizes because of me....I know how ur teachers and parents were backing up u and u were mugging the sheet filled with points stolen from somewhere else!I know how u would see me when I used to return collecting the prize.
30. I also apologise my school and college -when u had sent me as ur representative for some competitions and I didnt provide justice owing to various reasons!lack of interest, preparation,time....over confidence,laziness,attitude....whatever!I am sorry
31.I apologise my parents for being a "trouble child" always!I am sorry
32.I apologise my friends for making them feel bad many times....by either saying something....or doing/not doing something....or keeping silent!I am sorry
33.I am sorry Ms(name cant be revealed) for being intentionally harsh/ignorant with you.You over react many times and that is why I am so....
The list continues....
ooooofff I feel a great relief!
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