Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Smile.Thats all

Smile.Thats All! these were the words that came to my sight when I was about to signout from orkut,but just had refreshed the page.This was the message for me as todays' fortune !! To be frank, I dont agree with pros and cons of fortune,luck,fate,destiny etc etc but sometimes,rather I strongly believe that its just U who can control all of them, But still,sometimes U come across situations that takes u through a shock and a surprise and u really stand perplexed thinking is this luck or fate or neither of these !Well, i got diverted I guess,may be I have even failed here to convey what I really mean,but still let it be.nyways my blog,my wish;)Coming back,Yes even though I dont believe and also dont go by these fortunes,horoscopes,tails of sunsigns....sometimes I just cant control the curiosity to learn what it says!Bloody daily newspaper horoscopes!He writes the samething for every1 in changed order and that repeats week after week with another set of bullshit.Whatever,I tell u its real fun to read that, I have the heartiest laughter when I read it with my friends!Those stupid things,impossible possibilities!, what blunders might happen if for a day we really try to follow this and other such horoscopes and try o act according to it!I fear to imagine!All is fine when everything goes fine....unless u take all these very seriously,unless nothing goes wrong actually its okay u read or study or follow all these. But hasnt this and such other beliefs changed the lifes of so many people in our society.Its really tragic. What not people do blindly having faith in these superstitions.Unfortunately so called "educated people","middle class people","above middle class people","rich people" supposed to be the creamy layer of the society,is not an exemption to this and the disaster is they contribute much more foolishness.
Well,this is a debatable topic and will go anywhere and everywhere....yes, many many different thoughts are rushing into my head and its better if I stop writing or else will divert hopelessly!
Just to come back where I started,with curiosity I do read these daily fortunes on orkut.These days,orkutting itself has become a very rare activity,even then I make it a point to see what is there for me everytime I login! When I saw the line "Smile,Thats all", I really smiled....but that was not just a smile.I tell you,thousands of thoughts and memories had passed across my mind in that fraction of a second!A Smile can mean anything and yes really anything !!Will not get into any further detail.....
But yes,who can forget the smile on Monalisa's face!!? Whats the secret behind Monalisa's smile??you know?? You want to know?? just continue reading....
Once upon a time, our Timma was travelling in a train and the train halted for a crossing.Timma wide opened his eyes and started to watch the surrounding nature. As the train had just started to move,Timma's eyes caught the big poster that just passed,which had the painting of monalisa and below it were the words "U know the secret of Monalisa's smile??".Timma bent down,right left bt in vain....he could not see the next words on the poster and the train moved!So dissapointed was Timma that such a treasured secret slipped out of his hands....if only he had seen it a few mins before!che ! He decided,hes gonna lose something if he leaves this here and carry on....Got off at the next station, and came back running to discover th e much awaited suspense.Can u imagine Timmas plight when he really discovered the "secret"....

U know the secret of Monalisa's smile??"
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"Its the magic of CLOSE-UP toothpaste ....tan tan ta dan "!!!!

Oops ;)

Thursday, November 27, 2008

I am sorry !

Apologising doesnt mean u r wrong and the other person is right;it only means u value ur relation much more than fighting over arguments. How true,but its also true that its the one task for which people often look behind,egos come across and without our knowledge will have messed up things! I am not an exception for this....so far in my life, have done many mistakes, many unfortunate things have happened even before I realise them,also in many cases someone might have thought I have commited a crime,which I might never ever have remembered....so, I feel I want to say " I am sorry for that"....how??it feels a nice to put them in words here....not originally my idea though....strongly have felt I should do this after reading Guru's blog....so let me confess here :
1. I am sorry appa for pinching ur pockets the day I came to earth----i happened to see the hospital bills lately, and really I am an "expensive child" and u know I have continued to be the same :P
2. I am sorry amma for making ur nights sleepless when I was a kid : < 1 year....i have been told I was giving u a lot of trouble midnights asking to move me like a swing!
3. I am sorry Ajji,Geetha,Asha,Sandhya and Jayashree for the same reason as above....I have heard that my mom used to leave me with u guys to take care of-thats not my fault though!
4.I am sorry amma again for all the fights u have undergone(if u have)with others for my sake...that I might had complained tat some1 playing with me broke my toy,stole my pencil,dirtied my dress,pulled my hair,teased me,hit me, etc etc
5.I am sorry tata....I might have not spent more time with u....now I feel I have missed something,but u r not here to come back and talk to me....
6. I am sorry all my juniors at rotary, for having troubled u at times....simply asking questions, or complaining sir!
7. I am sorry Deepa, for having hit u so hard that u started crying and then I also started crying!I dont remember why i hit u,also dunno why u cried....may be it was a pain! also ,dunno why I started crying!!may be i didnt know what to do!after few minutes both of us were fine and v continue to be more than fine for even today....this was in 7th std!
8.I am sorry Prasanna,for having dirtied ur drawing sheet. u had kept under the desk and gone somewhere and I used that to clean some mud on my shoe!U came back and started crying!Even today I dunno if that drawing sheet was worth crying...nyways I am sorry for that....this was also in 7th std!
9.I am sorry Sandeep because I tore ur tie while playing..6th std or 5th?? i dont remember
10.I am sorry Varun...I used to snatch ur stickers,cricket cards collected buying chewing gums, and lock them in cup-board. Then used to make u literally beg to get them back!
11.I am sorry Madhushree for teasing u so much in 7th std!!
12.I am sorry Shruthi and Prathibha-on the farewell day of our 7th std,we 4 of us had locked the room and didnt allow u both to come in even after u knocked the door.
13.I am sorry pri for taking u on a ride on my bicycle, making u fall....and ur palm was like a tomato for atleast 15 days!
14.I am sorry Guru uncle- i had broken the photo frame which held ur daughters photo.Dunno why I strongly felt guilty at that time but couldnt apologise u
15.I am sorry Pradyumna for the scoldings u got from ur mom on holi day for playing too much. Next day i had apologised ur mom also !
16.I am sorry uncle(cant reveal the name) for not opening the door when u came at 11.40.I had locked the grills and doors and nobody in my house knew u came. U came,saw the doors locked and moved away.nice of u....but it was not nice of u to always disturb my dad at that late hour....so I didnt open the door....nyways I am sorry!
17.I am sorry old man for having hit u with my bike when u were walking....it was my fault and for that I paid more than enough for all the dramas u made as if u were dying there, even though there was not a single scratch on ur body!also again I come to see u, and u started limping the moment u saw me,and again I handed some more money!!
18.I am sorry Mr.unknown for hitting ur Luna with my activa....and u fell and I didnt even turn to see what happened.It was mistake from both of us...both were riding super fast,adding to that u were riding seeing chamundi hills! and never bothered to hear my horns and ur Luna was a super model...I doubt if it had breaks....nyways sorry!
19.I am sorry Prashali for whatever i have done/not done individually/with some1 else intentionally/unintentionally that had created uncomfortness between us.I wanted to say a sorry many times and again could not for many many reasons.glad that things are fine now!for once, I am sorry
I am also sorry for what happened in chemistry lab during our second sem....I pippeted NaOH thrice and finished titration, and all others followed me and pippeted NaOH.Unfortunately, when u pippeted,it got into ur mouth and started burning, and u had to drink some acid after that for neutralization! and after that ur lips and longue swell like hanuman for a week.I only came to know that NaOH should not be pippeted as its strength was something like 10N and what we did in PU was around 0.1 or 0.4N. Sorry !
20.I am sorry Mr.(name cant be revealed) for ignoring u so much .... u might not had any other intentions but I always got kinda irritated whenever I saw u.
21.I am sorry Prakasha mama, if only We had a lil more presense of mind, there could be chances that u would be with us today,atleast I wouldnt not feel as bad as I feel now.
22.I am sorry Aunty(name cant be revealed) again for ignoring u.But u r really irritating and its not my fault for feeling so!
23.I am sorry uncle(name cant be revealed) for not even bothering to ignore u! for u r irritating to the core....
24.I am sorry all the grocery sellers at Andolana circle....All of u want me to buy vegetables from u...thats business for u....but I can buy from only 1 and always feel like buying from the same person and u all feel bad!!
25.I am sorry all the bus-conductors of buses I daily travel....i give u 5 rs, u give back 2 rs, I give it back again and insist on giving me the ticket,thus avoiding u from stealing the 3 rs from BTS.U give me a strange look and I give back a smile! I am sorry. just wish that i dont get into ur bus. nyways these days I am not frequently travelling by bus....and u dont face this issue!
26.I apologise all my classmates who used to strive hard and pray hard to get more marks than me, but couldnt achieve that. I am sorry, now I know nothing would have changed if I had got a mark or 2 less than u ppl then.
27.I am sorry Ms....(name cant be revealed). I know u wanted only one mark more than me that too in any one test and in any one subject.But that didnt happen. If only u had told me so,I would have made sure that happens.coz we were in 10th std at this time and I already knew the value of "marks"....I was aiming only for knowledge....cough cough....too much na ;)
28.I aplogise all others of whom I have felt jealous (if I have ever, I cant recall and I think i have not )for they having scored more marks than me. I am sorry.!
29.I am sorry for all the participants who used to come for debates and essay competitions and lost prizes because of me....I know how ur teachers and parents were backing up u and u were mugging the sheet filled with points stolen from somewhere else!I know how u would see me when I used to return collecting the prize.
30. I also apologise my school and college -when u had sent me as ur representative for some competitions and I didnt provide justice owing to various reasons!lack of interest, preparation,time....over confidence,laziness,attitude....whatever!I am sorry
31.I apologise my parents for being a "trouble child" always!I am sorry
32.I apologise my friends for making them feel bad many times....by either saying something....or doing/not doing something....or keeping silent!I am sorry
33.I am sorry Ms(name cant be revealed) for being intentionally harsh/ignorant with you.You over react many times and that is why I am so....

The list continues....

ooooofff I feel a great relief!

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

e-cigarette!!

I was excited to read the mail that smoking will be strictly prohibited in EGL golf link park.Its one of the good things happening around....I was happy because this was something practical, "can be enforced" thing and hope banning of smoking wil be successful here. Union Minister's move to ban public smoking of cigerettes may not become a holistic success....I fear this law will be lost somewhere! Atleast such a law in our work environment should be and will be a success.
This was the topic of discussion for more than a couple of times for me shruthi and shilpa....We would always talk about girls smoking, huge ash trays here and there, more than a dozen of guys smoking together and it was a nightmare to walk across that path.Everybody knows the hazards of smoking....but still its not been easy for majority of smokers to quit. Now the question is how will these addicts manage with the rule coming to force. I have seen addicts whose minds dont run without taking a break for smoking!Lately, my concern was for the companies which have hired these smokers....and my imagination----practically how will the work move if these guys are not allowed to smoke in and around the building....!they'll have to walk atleast for 10-15 mins to help themselves....this is keeping in mind that whole of EGL park is "no smoking zone" and they have to come out of it for smoking! I guess it takes atleast one hour for a person to start working again .3 such breaks a day?? I think it'll be that....then lunch break for an hour atleast....so a min of 4-5 hours break/day!!v r supposed to work min 8hrs/day! just cant imagine the outcome of this routine! a real problem to think!
Well, every problem has a solution! Today morning again was excited to see the word "e-cigerette" !! I was tempted 2 much to click on it for details....but before that just 2 mins....wht I thought is...this should be some virtual thing, which would help addicts to get releived....thought it'll be some software....may be u would get smoke or flames after u launch it !!!!!!!or can send cigerettes like e-mails and peple will get satisfied receiving it, a lighter or a match stick sent with it would be striked, and u would enjoy virtually!!!!( I know its a poor imagination !).....but when I started reading more abt it, it was not at all what I had guessed! Take a look!
http://www.siliconindia.com/shownews/47284
oooof what all people invent,discover!!!! hey nyways this is actually a good stuff coming around....There is absolutely no harm for the passive smokers I guess....cool....pretty expensive!now this one actually is "burning your money before the cigerrate and burning your body after smoking"....High time smokers you quit it!

Sunday, September 14, 2008

Am I happy....

2 days back , I was walking briskly to reach home( pg :( ) as soon as possible. It was lightly pouring and these are really nightmares for me. I leave office 15-20 min late, it starts raining and my day gone. cant bear with those muddy roads....walking on road will be like walking in a river. I had never even dreamt that I would shop an umbrella! never in my life till now had used an umbrella!!Only thing that was running on my mind was to reach home before I get drenched.suddenly I could not avoid watching a girl on roadside , sitting on the footpath she was eating corn.her eyes were somewhere else....was she dreaming...without my knowledge I stood there for few seconds.
what came to my mind was a completely diff thing. To be frank,I really didnt feel sympathetic towards her.These days I have no soft corner for beggars.Have heard,seen and read most of their dramas and it has become a "profession"and "business" today.The first thing that came to my mind was "she is so happy"....was I jealous of her for a sec??!I dunno!yes with all the unfortune with her,she was kinda enjoying that moment.how relaxed she is,doesnt think about tomorrow,no responsibilities,no duties,no commitments, does she worry abt the pollution,population and terrorism!no stress,no tension....days pass as she sees.so nice! whatever u do or u dont do,life will be going on....y do v worry so much everyday.think abt every action,worry abt the unseen future,regret for the past days.Life is so easy,if u r a beggar.something to eat-to survive....not very hard to get,and u r done.no worries.every1 will die one day,and for dying someday,how much v struggle the whole life.2 secs felt "she is more happier than me"!me and dad had once discussed on this,and all that came into memory.I continued to walk. Let me put a short story related to this which my dad had told....
Once upon a time, there was a beggar girl in a town.One day the prince of that empire was on his rounds and saw her.She was so beautiful and the prince decided to marry her.But when the girl heard the proposal,she was scared abt the "royal life" and refused.When the prince forced her, she said,"u dunno my background and how I have lived life so far.Beg with me for one week,ur opinion may change after getting to know abt my life. Even then if u r ready to marry me,I will be ok with that". The prince agreed.From next day,both started to beg together,the prince in disguise ofcourse. 1st day....2nd day....3rd....4th....5th....the girl was shocked.She had thought the "prince" would give up the very first day!At the end of the 6th day,she realised how dumb she was.How bad it was on her part to make the future king of the empire to beg in his own land.How blind she was,she could not see the fortune knocking her.she went to the prince...apologised and said "this is enough, lets go to the palace and live happily forever". Guess what the prince said....
" Wait for another 2 hours. I'll finish begging the other 2 streets, taste in those houses will be extremely good and nothing else can compete with the mixture from all houses(of 2-3 days) !"
May be the prince was right! coz many times v eat such bad food inside AC rooms!
Hmmm thats not the point,thats not life....was that a dissappointed look...she will have got that corn as alms...will she be thinking when again she will get something to eat...whatever,I dont know.how v live is important,and all those "known philosophies",yes I completely agree. But one should learn to enjoy life and get satisfied easily. I have seen so many people- never happy,never satisfied,how much ever success they have achieved,how much ever money they have,....they dont know what happiness is....
These days I have started to enjoy every little issue/thing. It feels gr8.A sincere smile,some few mins talk,a melodious song,some humour inbetween, just sit with ur loved ones-parents,siblings,friends for half an hour.I tell U,u'll feel extremely relaxed and happy.what not! it really works.Take life easily!so....Am I happy?? YES, and will be happy forever :)

Friday, September 5, 2008

"SNAPSHOT"

I liked the concept of "snapshots"....which is point in time copy and a read-only copy which can be restored later for read-write purposes. wondering!!??? howcome something technical from my side!hang on u'll come to know....
These snapshots generally, by default are taken at every 1 hour and u can restore whichever snapshot u want and continue from there. So far so good.
I wish someone had taken "snapshots" of our lives,v could go back, correct our mistakes,in a way-really design our lives.so nice na!I want snapshots from my +2 class.Not that I'm not happy for what I am,but I'd love to take life in a completely different direction and see how it goes! if not from +2 ,atleast badly I want the snapshots of 4 years BE! one per year(fair enough!)....I would restore my 3rd year snapshot i.e

snapdrive snap restore -file /mnt/4NI04CS074/shu -snapname NIE:/cs/shubhada:SNAP3

>>file restored successfully .

happy :)...I make all the changes....(1) my semester marks improve(5th and esp 6th)
(2) 2 accidents on my crown are removed
(3) v 3 utilize our time in a better way than worrying too much about others!
and many more .......
shubhada, all this at the cost of 1 extra year....another year with VTU! totally 5 years .... hmmm "u want something u should sacrifice something".....okay, hey wait, if I am restoring one year,Y will I do only that...I would rewind the "life clock" and "life calender" also!ok something nice...carry on....
ok done. now, I dont want to continue, I want my 4th year back....which was so nice!such good marks....nice fun....change in the way of life(with many lessons and realizations)....I try this

snapdrive snap restore -file /mnt/4NI04CS074/shu -snapname NIE:/cs/shubhada:SNAP4

>>Error :command failed: unable to find the snapshot

aaaa????

snapdrive snap restore -file /mnt/4NI04CS074/shu -snapname NIE:/cs/shubhada:SNAP4

>>Error :command failed: unable to find the snapshot

what the hell!?

snapdrive snap restore -file /mnt/4NI04CS074/shu -snapname NIE:/cs/shubhada:SNAP4

>>Error :command failed: unable to find the snapshot

noooooooo....

guys!when u restore a snapshot, all other snapshots taken after that are no more valid....:( This will now mean another year more with VTU. no way acceptable!

see friends I cant even enjoy virtually, this technology puts a constraint then and there! I can conclude "snapdrive" fails on /Life/shubhada

WAIT ! The very purpose of "snapshots" is data protection and recovery right, it happens in life also....snapdrive is installed in every brain....the whole content of snapshot will be etched in memory which stays there permanently. U can restore it time and again and send back, with the only difference----it remains a read-only copy forever!what if I have a brain-haemmorhage .... :) every prob has a solution....this is the time for "disaster recovery"....get back to ur dairies which r equivalent to tapes and disks ;)

Now time to decide....u should either change snapdrive s/w to meet ur requirements or change the attitude towards life. 2nd is better :) :( . past is past....never again can get back those days,and every min spent now is gone forever! with this, get up....got to meet shil,shwe and su take a "snapshot" which remains evergreen for the rest of life :)

Thursday, August 28, 2008

BACK TO COLL DAYS!

A gr8 experience!after a month of "professional life", was taken back to coll life environment....guess how??something even i had not expected....training for 2 weeks was scheduled from 25th of this month for another one week. Its basically a bird view of technologies and products here.some talks Quite interesting and some others go over head.one gr8 thing that happened is v really enjoyed these 4 days.ask how! exactly like v would do in our coll days.Attending classes and seminars for the sake of attendance,sitting back passing comments,laughing all the way trying to hide ourselves! finally come out and burst out!Some sessions were really interesting and informative but unfortunately many others were too boring.V would get completely bored especially in the post-lunch session...whatever the reasons may be!First day,there were experienced people in the crew and also geeks with master degree holders from IIT's. Some first 2 sessions, questions were shooted like anything,many irrelevant though!I felt many were completely unnecessary in the sense I felt in no way those information would help,and gradually u'll get to know as u work on products,also some info u'd get on the net if browsed rather bugging people here for info which just tax memory,and no 1 would be prepared to collect such statistics on mind! Well, let me not get deep into it! coz the more important and interesting issues r yet to come to light;)
Me and Shruthi were sitting physically there but mentally completely lost!What was going in our minds:r v the only 2 dumb girls here,not much things going into our head,feeling this session is of no use to us,and wondering how r others able to concentrate so much!after some time,decided to have a look on every1 else....first shock!a guy who was in the first seat in the morning session, and used to ask questions for every slide,and would never get convinced,had moved to the last seat!What was more interesting was, he from IIT-Chennai and was playing with a guy from IIT-Delhi! and what were they playing----"chukki ata"....a game of joining dots!....and they were playing this on tissue paper!!oooooooooof typical IITians :D!they continued this for the rest of the days as well!cool,really they've enjoyed! V couldnt control our laughter....next our eyes went on Sneha and Nivedita....crazy girls,they r trying their handwriting from left hand!after sometime I see again,seriously they r thinking something and making kinda points....stared for 2 more secs, got to know they r playing "cows and bulls" so nice! I remember the days v used to play inside classroom!, bingo,bollywod and more than that "fighter planes",i'm not getting the proper name for that,Prashali,what is that??????v used to play for nearly 2-3 periods!How can I 4get the dumb charads v were playing during class hours,across 3-4 benches!one in the bench starts laughing and the whole bench starts shaking!how many times VKA has stared at us. really frightening look she used to give,and for my luck/fate she became my project guide!but at last all ends well....she gave 95/100 for the dumb project!I suddenly remember 1 of the lecturer of sadvidya,physics dept....again there also our routine was sitting in last benches and laughing,he used to catch us so fiercely and a lecture after that for not less than 30 mins! god...i had got caught once and he asked a question,I answered :)physics had become one of my favourite subjects at that time and I used to fairly know things.He had not guessed that I'd answer!may be he was planning to spend the rest of the time targetting me,he was not ready to accept my correct answer,started with some theory all just to confuse us and finally came back to my answer, followed with his usual lecture!V were so helpless those days!whatever happens,should accept!another day,with a diff lecturer,and yes from physics again!"genda"-what all used to call him,he was taking current electricity for our class.One of the useless class was his and v all unanimously felt it was waste of time but used to attend min no. of classes for the sake of attendance!and dont ever imagine of taking notes of his sessions....but,sometimes I strongly feel I have to do somethings which every1 without a second thought skip!yes,I was maintaining notes for his sessions.In that class,it was Harini and Varsha who were completely involved in gossiping and got caught!they were sitting 2 benches ahead of me.he asked for their notes which were filled with lyrics of songs,cartoons this and that....they were asked to move out and for my surprise he suddenly asked for my notes!I was so happy after that to see his shocked face,he turned the pages nearly 4-5 times ensuring its my book and the stuff there was "physics".He knew very well that no 1 in the class would have maintained notes and had not even in his dreams expected that I'd have made sucha thing!his attitude towards me changed from that day,started giving a smile always from then!and nearly after 3 years since I left sadvidya,happened to see him near my house and he could very well recognise me with name!I had 1 more bad exp with YRR....hey it hink could have made a diff post for my sadvidya experiences....all most all bad ones :( yeah,coming back, me and shruthi were releived,thank god!no problem with us!v r like evey1 else and yes can say better ;)v too played BINGO,but just 1 game.2 girls in front of us!again experienced ladies who were so active for the starting sessions had completely come down.By this time it was dificult for 2 of us to control laughter,seeing others plays and faces!The 2 girls in front of us were very carefully examining and comparing their lunch coupons!!godd! what all things people do to kill time! after that even i turned mine and Shruthi's coupons back to see what was there;)By this time,every1 was damn bored....well the correct word would be "too tired",there were no questions,no interactions and 1 hour session would end in 40 mins!A very needed break v would get,at which time I used to return to my cube and try finish some tasks,for which Shruthi would always scold me ;)oooof another girl, completely slept,how dare she could do that! she could've walked out instead!nyways they were also points of entertainments for us!another guy,again a "specimen" after asking all high funda questions and doubts,asked "is ontap a filer??!"U can guss how me and shru would've reacted for that!that guy next tossed an orbit-may be or something like that to his mouth,next secong starting shaking hands vigorously..shruthi started "He is getting fits....see see"....I was getting scared if v'll be caugt for laughing like hell....next he bent his chair so low and was moving back and forth!"This guy will definitely break that chair today!"and v bursted again!One guy used to frequently go out and come....and would carry his mobile such a way that every1 gets to know hes gettng a call!shruthi again " how many calls he gets a day, y will no 1 call us??", and my answer "I too get hutch calls nearly 6-7 a day ;)shruhti started drawing my pic finally!"what not! hmmm another girl, daily used to come nearly 40 mins late, the first session would've come to an end!again would extend her breaks for atleast 10-15 mins....finally used to enter the post lunch session,with the dress changed and fresh make up!!!!!gr8 !! hey appreciate our observation skills,what not have v noticed!our next observation, y do people get 2-3 cans of tropicanas together!I dont feel like drinking that at all....completely filled with sugar and ,,,,,,,,,,,,other preservatives....one can i drank and the whole day felt like puking!leave thats individual "taste"!
Next today HR training....about coll to corporate life....thought it'd interesting, but not as expected. V had really enjoyed such training after 6th sem in coll which was the CII traning....unforgetable days! But this here didnt attract much,dunno the reason....may be v very well know those things or the time for implementaton of those "thoughts","values" and "actions" has come and its becoming difficult for us to accept!now dont ever ask me what this means....
Lets c how it'll go tomorrow!and for the next week,it looks completely technical.hope things dont go over my head and these sessions will really help some way!

Saturday, August 2, 2008

First 5 days !

Finally the day came which ended my "student life". Very first day had the experience of "traffic jam". If I remember properly,was late by 5 mins I guess.Was asked to fill some papers and that took half a day. Then I met my manager . I had already met him once during my interview, 5 months before though!do I have a very poor memory or some confusion?? he appeared totally different to what I had thought. But yes, I could recall my interview day , later after 2days when I again spoke with my manager . Same thing happened with another person who had taken interview for me! ok me writing something like this....is this making sense??what if it doesnt?? nyways my blog , my wish !
Manager introduced my "buddy"- who will be the point of contact for all help(tech and general) , and he took me around, showed my cubicle....introduced the team members, took for lunch etc etc . He showed my cubicle and way to his' in such a good way , I could easily make to my seat from the next day without roaming here and there! laptop was being configured , and I was asked to study some materials, this continued for the rest of the days with some assignments. I really find difficult to recognise people....remembering names....if they r in my team or not....1 face seems familiar, where have I seen before ! some1 is coming should I smile or not....what if the other person doesnt recognise me !All this happened all the 5 days!!That'll get better after some more days :)
My only problem is food! morning before finishing my plate, a glass full of milk will be kept in front of me . All this happened coz I asked aunt to give me half cup of coffee and I cant drink the whole! she shifted to milk :( I had stopped drinking milk nearly 6-7 years ago! and now, every morning feel like puking. Next I tell her to please fill only half the tiffin box . she says yes, but everyday only half the box will be empty when my stomach is full! Thanks there is place at NetApp for food waste. I know its bad to throw food like that when in India..................................but still I'm helpless. I cant take the box unemptied !Night again I really get tired to finish the plate....and aunt inbetween keeps telling....'you should b like this...tht....eat that.....'. Only thing that came to my mind was....if only I was at my home, and my mother had done all this to me....I'd have shouted at her, kept the milk glass untouched and brought back the box as it is ! next, how disciplined I am at their place! daily I fold my bedspreads as soon as I get up!wash my clothes! wash my plates! keep the shoe neatly at the rack....fold my clothes...offff what not! I think aunt will die if she sees my room at my house!
hmmm coming back, 5 days passed so quickly!hey I felt happy to be there actually . Really a great place to work. Got to learn many things . have a gr8 scope for improvement. One blunder I did ! .... had to mail to some desk requesting for the subscription of dl-btc-all. I dunno what I was thinking! I was actually studying some stuff, a script was runing parallely , and I got msg from shruthi to subscribe for this ! instead of addressing to the desk, I sent the mail to dl-btc-all. This mail goes to every1 working for NetApp at Bangalore! offfff within no time, my inbox was filled with mails from many, correcting my mistake ! I deserved that for spamming every1 with my mail! hey, also the otherway its so nice of them na...they bothered to correct me! whatever, had a hearty laugh after that with shruthi !
So , my "professional life" has started! and I have some training also regarding that in the next week. Lets see how that and my work after that goes."All the best Shubhada, I wish u dont make any more blunders there, its ok even if u dont come up with wonders for some time!"

Friday, July 25, 2008

DANGER !

Yesterday was just killing time browsing when suddenly heard the BREAKING NEWS .... serial bomb blasts in B'lore . Really shocking news....within a couple of minutes new blasts at different areas were discovered . Thank god,no much harm to people and properties . 1 killed and 8 injured as of now OR as revealed ! seems a negligible number but it is 2 much for the friends and families of those victims . Innocent lifes were risked by this unfortunate act . Everything so well planned, makes 1 tremble!
No place is safe to live . South India esp Karnataka was supposed to b some peaceful place but its no more that. over a few decades , B'lore has been a hot spot . Being the garden city , IT capital , hosting people from all over the world , life in B'lore is not at all easy . We all know about the traffic conditions there and problems finding a house! still, my experiences there :
I wanted to look for an accomodation in b'lore in a place somewhat closer to my workplace .went for a hunt . people say its so easy to get a PG acco there,house there that this ! I agree , V do get, but the point is ....r those places worth living !? almost all the PG's I saw were 3/4 sharing in a room.common bathroom. I tell u guys u get a cot and a shelf for urself .Apart from that u r lucky if u get place to rest ur feet! This is the condition...highly commercial! well no comments on that coz its the way of making a living for them!with this comes ur adjustment with the rest of them in the room . well better not say anything on that. That depends on the situation and how u carry it on.some twin sharing and single rooms r also available.The problem is u'll not get the assurance of safety and security . well lakhs of people r living and continue to live , thats a different story but for me and girls like me its highly impossble.Also have heard some stories of PG's being raided with many suspicions....this that....fingers crossed! but cant say what kind of people r staying with us, coz as i said B'lore is the host for every kind of people from everywhere !
Well next looked for some single bedroom houses also as v friends could stay together . Far better that PG's but has problems of its own kind.1. high rents , cant help . 2. again the the environment problem .3. Gas stove and cooking problem ! 1 house was okok...affordable rent , well situated, decent owners....but distance problem! another house....again rent ok,area ok, owner ok....when v were abt to leave that place thinking this is the last search, noticed that there is not a single window for the entire house ! ooooooooof god! such a poor ventilation. V would die if there is no power for some 2 hours! and there is so frequent power cuts these days! another 1 , very good looking, neat, they have actually modified a car garrage to a room cum kitchen !but still ok coz of the finely ordered things, but rent 8K! another single room attached to a house, again no place left if u put a cot!
There is no choice but to adjust! but will there not b a limit for such adjustment! In the heavy traffic of B'lore, cant even imagine travelling daily from relatives place....1 day also tried that, boarding bus no.201 . bus started at 9.20....i reached my work place at 11.30...this is common in b'lore but i cant even imagine myself travelling daily for 4 hours hanging in the bus !
And now to all this , the problem of terrorism has been added ! All the best B'lore !

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

!!CHANGE!!

I dont like changes . Starting from behaviour of a person, traditions , customs , whatever !it used to be very difficult for me to accept changes . Even now I cant imagine changing our house , or vehicle or some other possessions . But u see 1 cant b a stubborn sticking to a point . It used to b very uncomfortable for me when changing something or seeing a change .
All this was only until I heard "Change is the only thing that is permanent " . Just a deep thought into it , and I realised the truth in it . Not that I never knew it before!but again it takes some external force to awake u at times ! when i say this I remember our NTSE coach Mr. ShivKumar. It was in our 10th std .In between the problems, he used to speak generally,on life, career self improvement etc .One day he said a few lines on Television ."Watching television is the only activity during which ur brain doesnt work . It doesnt think anything else. just absorbs whatever imparted by the TV ". Well that was not the first time I heard something like that . My father used to always say "dont sit in front of the idiot box for hours, it'll make u idle , switch to reading books instead of serials and movies ".I never had taken this to mind!After that class , again a deep thought into his and my fathers words, what a gr8 realization! I wondered how these days I used to sit foolish watching those dumb serials and movies !from that day , after a few mins of watching TV, i feel I am really wasting precious time! well , some programs r informative, entertaining....yes yes i completely agree. I do watch them !
Let all the change happen for good !Thanks to the person who coined that statement :) There should b a cause for every change and reading this statement was for mine!

Sunday, June 8, 2008

LAST ...

As the situation was with the past 7 study holidays , again this time was holding the book in hand , eyes stuck to the page ,but the pages were not moving at all --- coz the mind was moving everywhere ! exams from 14th of this month---u ask whats special on tht?? These r my last exams ! well , I dunno everything infact anything abt my future but for now , these r my last study holidays, last exams, last fight with vtu, last time i'll b anxiously waiting for results, with mixed emotions !!
4 years have passed before realizing it! but had lots and lots of experiences in the meantime . exciting, disappointing, unforgettable memories some of which have made to learn very good lessons !
To b very frank I'm actually not getting very emoted this moment that my college days r coming to an end !There was the last technieks, last Acefest, last sports,last working day! . Everything passed as usual! Even on the farewell day nothing like "oo! v r having our farewell!" came into mind. well, dunno the reason for such "no expressions" but i'm sure its the case with majority of my classmates. I dont think I'll be wrong if I say its the case with "all" !
But still, sometimes when i sit alone, of course to study but when my mind will not b ready for that, I realise that for all practical purposes, I will no more sit in a classroom for a lecture,will not have a chance to bunk the class either! I'll never again go to canteen either for food! or for record completion! or for timepass ! Never again will v stand in the parking lot gossiping! no more collecting question papers, getting notes xeroxed ;) y all these ! will never again go to college! I dunno if this is a "loss" or "gain" or whatever ! But i know something is happening that'll make something else to happen !
Being very well aware that life is a constant process of learning and I'll always b a "student", I still feel like making this sentence , even if its not fact from all perspectives, its atleast true for the near futue!

These r my LAST STUDENT DAYS and they r ending VERY SHORTLY !

Monday, April 28, 2008

Where is "GOD"

Does god really exist, y the hell there r so many problems around....if only god existed , if he had those super natural powers as v read in mythological stories , all crisis in this world can be solved in a fraction of a second right! well the debate that whether "god" or any other supernatural power exists or not , will continue forever. I dont want to drill on that.
What was making me uncomfortable since a week was the death of a person. Not very close , no emotional bondings , hardly have seen a couple of times , to b frank never had spared even a few minutes thinking of her or speaking abt her , and never had spoken to her coz she was born dumb :(
When i heard that she is no more , some kind of sadness, some uneasiness and all these thoughts came to mind. People irritate us with their big mouths and some others show such an attitude to speak properly! this lady , who never parted her lips to tell something , whose existence could not be recognised, has filled emptiness when shes no more .
What comes in front of my eyes is her clear round fair face , those sparkling eyes filled with all ambitions of this world, a million dollar smile with no hidden expectations, intensions behind , just like a small kid!always would ask with her gestures ,"how r u ",hows ur sister, u've grown so tall !
V cry all the day for what v dont have , share it with all friends and relatives as if lifes goin to end without it, expect the whole world to listen to us ! what might b the intensity of sadness of such deprived people! v still see so many of them around us living optimistically, loving to live!
Such a harmless creature, god sent her to this earth as a star but forgot that she should b made to twinkle, existed as a dot among all others and on one unfortunate day dissappeared into sky :(
when " existance of god" becomes strongly questionable , I feel thers no point in believing souls....and of course no way reincanation. dunno what to say....i can just say without uttering a word, u have kinda lead a model life....cheers!
I remember this heart moving line " I was crying that i don have a pair of shoes until I saw a man with no feet "

Saturday, March 29, 2008

My Experiment with food-Shubhada ;);)









This has made me to again write abt my cooking! well this 1 is more interesting and exciting!!and ofcourse will b looooooooooooooooonnnggg 1 coz i'm feeling like writing everything from mustard to kabab;)....Acethetics has always been more interesting for me than technieks ( for those whor nt familiar with this....Acethetics is our department fest and technieks, college cultural fest) . Ace fest has been scheduled for today and tomorrow. As usual our sports events were there and shortly it'll b my post on those events....almost since a week me and shwetha r goin to coll everyday, idly spending time there and comin back....v even saw the acethetic posters on the notice board but remained reactionless . Yesterday after our throwball match in the evening,while comin back our conversation," hey cooking ge hogbodu....jasti entries iralla mostly....atleast v'll have fun ! so v'll collect details and go"! v r at our respective homes by 6 pm. nw called the organiser and collected details. v were supposed to get stove, utensils and everythin needed ourselves. First problem for our first plan.....STOVE. who has a electric stove or our dear kerosene stove! how the hell can v carry the other stove with cylinder!! tried here and there,no use then started to think abt menu! it was 7.30 by that time. V could nt meet as shwetha was supposed to go to dance practice which was nt confirmed and for our luck it started raining! Shilpa's mother had some books on recipes but v could nt even get that. k finally decided to search for a dish on the net! by this time a worm had entered our heads tellin nt to go with a known indian dish,that judges will completely comment on each and everything if they know somethin abt it...so our motto was search something different!( how different?? dunno!) .
V were asked to prepare 1 main course and any no of side dishes in 2 hours of time . First thing v agreed on was masala lemonade coz v were fully impressed by what v had taken in Pizzahut.So 1 item was ready. Next search was goin on passing the url's through yahoo messenger!it was 11.40pm by this time. Stove prob was kinda solved....Chaitra had agreed to get that from her uncles' place! couldnt come to a conclusion abt menu, bt jus marked a few recipes and decided to decide next morning!
Morning at 7 i msged her....from her bed itself she asked "should v go" she had lost interest and had dance practice also. I went to her place at 7.30. Planned that me and Shilpa will go for cooking and she'd carry on. But the next moment decision change !got back interest and v were to continue. Browsed again and finally came up with the following menu :

1.Stuffed corn leaves .
2.Soya kabab
3.Vegetable chopsuey
4.Paneer Amritsari
5.Masala papad
6.Masala Lemonade
Made a list of ingredients v had to buy and went to Shilpa's house . After discussions there went to buy things. Shwetha went to her practice. At shilpa's place v both ordered all the items and fortunately got the idea of trying soya kabab once! take a look on our ingredients.....many r missing ;)
hey i had forgotten to mention 1 important thing! V absolutely have no experience in cooking, zero knowledge abt recipes . Praise our courage to enter a competition that 2 without trying any of the selected menus beforehand!
k coming back,yeah opened the soya seeds cover.There was the first shock...her mother said....this is nt the soya u have to get....this will take a whole day to boil! ooooff rushed to a nearby store and bought the other variety!With her mothers help made the first kabab! awesome it was superb....got a big strength there! a ton thanks to aunty without her it'd have become a big flop show!
Shwetha came around 12.45 and the competition was at 2. Shilpa's mom had made nice kashmiri pulav for lunch! had that and came back home to get some more utensils and vegetables. The next problem was waiting for us there....there was no knob for the stove! Having gone to put the knob it was realised that there was no gas in that cylinder! Again back to Shwetha's house cylinder exchange and finally v were at college to start!
By this time v had dropped Stuffed corn leaves from the menu considering the complexity and time limit! Actually this was the item picked from my World Cuisine South America book which has a story of its own ;)
yes, Started now....chopped vegetables....i was supposed to fry the onions for the chopsuey nw. Tried to lit the cylinder, busssssssss o no off again tak busssssssss no way....nw shwetha came to light it.... Bloody stove jus 2 mins i've put the oil and onion it turned brown! that means i had overheated! okay nw had to place the pan down, did that. It was nt 2 late when it was recognised that i had brought fire also down with the pan....next was frying vegetables which brought shoulder ache....stupid raddish and cabbage....didnt become soft howmuch ever i stired finally stopped it!!Then was the main thing...adding vinegar soya sauce and cornflour and boiling with these vegetables....did that with trial and error method for pepper salt chat masala and all! finally kept that aside....
By this time soaked paneer in boiling water but v didnt know when to take it out! some guess some suggestion by Shilpa the gr8 finished that work with paneer!V were left with an hour more from now! and v had nt finished a single dish when all others were done either with 1 or 2. So nw decided to finish the chopsuey stuff. Opened the hakka noodles cover! Had no idea how to boil it or fry it or whatever! our gr8 minds could nt even read the instructions aback.....our logic----" if v boil in water,it'll become noodles so v'll fry in oil! " and started....2 mins 3 mins 5 mins no improvement but it started turning brown! then decided to add some water....added a lil.....chssssssssss o no stop! left like that for another 10 mins....nw it was neither chopsuey nor noodles but v could nothing but remove from the pan! transferred it to a plate added that curry and the chopsuey was ready! Decorations for that with cucumber and cauliflower!
See our serious discussions on proportions of ingredients ;) and also the "how to cook" paper v had carried ;) nyways this is a different sheet shilps has focussed!


After this gr8 experiment v had decided to drop paneerAmritsari also ;)















next moved to soya kabab....as expected this came out well....

Masala papad also didnt become a trouble....as it was very simple ;)
V had some 10 mins more....had to clean the table also.
Now for lemonade squeezed the lemons....our gr8 minds told us nt to add the soda now itself as it'd loose its effect by the time the judge comes! so kept that aside and cleane dthe table. Decorations for kabab was again superb....this was again shilpa's mothers idea and shilpa's efforts ;) Now v felt v still had time....what to do....there was corn which v had taken for a diff purpose! added that corn to a bowl with salt sugar pepper chatmasala garam masala mirchi powder lemon juice ...i think hopefully only that much ;) and our masala corn was ready!!again decorations for that (my idea)!!!!!!!!!!
so v were done! Jayashree ma'm was the judge....as she was abt to come near us added soda and chat masala to the juice and shwetha had a quick taste....yuck without further thinking the glass was kept off the table! ma'm was happy for our kabab- a high protein diet!! no reaction for chopsuey....was pleased with corn and okok with papad....she asked abt ingredients and method and v were through!

The moment ma'm left our table....it was "ATTACK" by all the juniors surrounding there..within no time all the 3 plates were empty except for chopsuey which only daredevils tried a spoon or 2 nt even 2 a spoon thats all ;)
After another 10 mins the results were out and......... v had got the second prize !!!!!!!!!!!!!!hahaha kinda shock bit surprised extremely happy lil expected totally v were filled with mixed emotions;)
Now time to look into our dear frying pan :( poorthing.... v went to wash it along with 2 more plates!
finally back home with all things dumped to polythene bags!
Gr8 experience had lots of fun....Never should any1 miss such a chance. winning is nt important but the experiences after adding every ingredient along with which there adds a friends comment....some1 cracks a joke inbetween and a 1 liner from somewhere behind....cant get these days back....shilpa u did a good job by taking videos can see them and laugh for a life time
And finally a word..... to whoever said cooking was difficult........i bet u friends there cant b any other job easier than this....i'l tell u y....add whatever u want , in any proportion , everything is edible. If its nt friedrice its chitranna if u have added 2 tomatoes its tomatobath thats all! ;) Big deal! afterall v should eat to survive nt survive to eat right;)....i think this statement was coined by some gr8 chef like me ;) Its nt u right, shwetha?? Shilpa is it u??!


Thursday, March 6, 2008

Rasam without dal!

No doubt Mysore is a wonderful place to stay and hang on....yes u also get good food at restaurants and ya comparitively at a fair price also! but it has so happened that if u ask me to come out for a food, i'll think for nearly half an hour to select the place finally choosing to stay back....may be because esp in these 4 years me and my friends have gone out so frequently that v have covered almost all hotels in mys dont feel like eating out anymore ( even then v'll not miss a chance to ask for a treat even for a succesful seminar ;) thats a diff story though ) .
When my mom was out for some function for nearly 3 days , it was my turn to try hands on cooking ! Of course it was nt a big prob for a girl like me who is handling gr8 vtu! I dunno who discovered dosa dough....but nyways a million thanks to him/her....how nicely i could manage for 2 days !!:P but 1 night badly wanted some light food ....so decided to make rasam !
Now look friends this can be a cooking tip to all of u for u may have to stay alone/with friends in PG's cutting fingers,burning hands and turning the vessel to the color of coal!!
Took a vessel with 2 glasses of water and kept for boiling....then started searching the shelf for what all ingredients i can get....got a red color powder but i didnt know if it was chilly powder or chatni pudi!!!!!!!!added both of equal quantities. it doesnt matter much as both r edible!! Then took 2 tomatoes cut into 8 halves each and added....then didnt know what to do ! I found no other ingredient which I thought could be added to rasam....ohhhh then i realised I dont have cooked dal to add!! supposed to be the main component!!!!it was too late by that time!decided nyways MY HOUSE MY WISH I cook in whatever way I want....also who eat that r MY FATHER and MY SISTER!!:P k bravely decided to continue and realised that i should add tamarind powder....may b something was working in my inner mind ( to compensate for the missing dal !)which made me to add double the amount of tamarind powder than needed! so it was swalpa huli huli ashte!!
Then added coriander leaves ,mustard seeds,cumin seeds,turmeric,hing powder all fried in oil! yes as soon as i added got a smell!some familiar smell ....was consoled that i have ended in doin something edible!then as i turned saw the salt box which was not touched till then ! k thought to add that also! dunno quantity tht should b known by trial and error method ;) thought will end here but the next moment got an idea of adding coconut! k started grating a coconut half....that was 2 much for the quantity of rasam i made but because of my laziness to keep the remaining half in refrigerator making space for it i put the whole thing to rasam !!
Yes it was ready to serve.Actually i thought to taste it before serving but didnt get that courage....thank god rice was in a good condition.My father after 2 morsels looked at me! I had my fingers crossed....he said " no prob, swalpa huli jasti kara kammi,belene kantilla? " all I could say was through a grin :D

Sunday, February 3, 2008

I get back my strength from these !

"Rayara kudure katte ayitu " all of us have heard this right....most of us are living examples for this but i'm a SOLID example ! cheers Shubhada , proud of u :D hmmm really if i close my eyes and think abt how i was b4 and how i am now I jus cant believe myself....my thoughts ideas determination dedication aims ambitions what not....everything changed drastically....still my old friends say "neenantu ond swalpanu change agilla kane "! may b my approach for them hasnt changed or as a person I am the same but for myself....there r changes !! and all changes for bad :( reason ???? dunno cant say exactly but ofcourse laziness has the major share ! well even then no regrets ;) still theres time to get back and "construct" my dreams.
Once upon a time, when I was a good girl , say some 6-7 years ago ,when I had some good habits read "U can win "by Shiv Khera....no comments a superb book on self improvement. I had made a notes of all mind catching quotes and thought provoking sentences....yes I have also done some good things like this ....at times I gothrough this diary to get motivated ,inspired whatever u can call ! jus thought can put some of them here so that it gives a meaning in I reading my blog again and again !!

  • Success doesnt mean the absense of failures;it means the attainment of ultimate objectives. It means winning the war, not every battle.----Edwin.C.Bliss

wah wah ! the very first quote has brought my strengths back! i'm feeling it was said for me only !!!! i'm really happy what I did some years back has really helped me today !If I remember correctly this was the quote on cover page of the book....so is it the first 1 in my diary !

  • Winners dont do different things.They do things differently.
  • If a smile is not sincere,it is irritating .
  • Foundation of success is ATTITUDE, regardless of your chosen field.
  • When people dont know how to recognize opportunity,they complain of noise when it knocks.
  • Even a stopped clock is right twice a day.
  • Spend so much time improving yourself that you have no time left to critisize others.
  • Choose your advisers carefully and use YOUR judgement.
  • An abundance of commonsense is called wisdom.
  • A person's character is not only judged by the company he or she keeps; but by the company he or she avoids.
  • Start by doing what is necessary , then what is possible, and suddenly you are doing the impossible.----St.Francis Of Assise .
  • Nothing worthwhile in life comes without a struggle .
  • Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem----Abigail Van Buren .
  • Successful people compete against themselves.They better their own record and keep improving constantly.
  • We cant choose the direction of the wind,but we can choose how we set the sail.
  • A burning desire is the starting point of all accomplishments.
  • Integrity is keeping your commitment even if u lose money and wisdom is not to make such foolish commitments .
  • Playing to win comes out of inspiration whereas playing not to lose comes out of despiration .
  • Ability without dependability,responsibility and flexibility is a liability.
  • Rest if you must but dont you quit .Its when things seem worst that you mustnt quit .
  • Trifles make perfection and perfection is no trifle .
  • Time wasted is life wasted .
  • Three kinds of people :

1. who make things happen

2.who watch things happen

3.who wonder what happened

  • Opportunities come disguised as obstacles.
  • Education ought to teach us not only how to make a living but also how to live .
  • winner : " It may b difficult but it is possible "
  • loser : " It may b possible but its too difficult "
  • winners follow the philosophy "dont do to others what you would not want them to do to you "
  • losers follow the philosophy "do it to others before they do it to u"
  • winner makes commitments.
  • loser makes promises.
  • A man is a hero not because he is braver than anyone else ,but because he is brave for ten minutes longer....Ralph Waldo Emerson
  • The saddest words in life are "I should have ..." .
  • The harder I work ,the luckier I get----Samuel Goldwyn
  • Attempting half heartedly is like expecting failure and achieving it .
  • No one can make you feel inferior without your permission....Eleanor Roosevelt .
  • He who would learn to fly one day must first learn to stand and walk and run....Friederich Nietzsche .
  • Small people talk about other people,mediocre people on things and great people about ideas .
  • Cheat me once,shame on you ; cheat me twice ,shame on me .
  • Forgive the other person but dont forget his name .
  • A problem well stated is a problem half solved----Charles Kettering.

hmmmmmm I turned not even one-fourth of my diary....well whats more important is how well v imbibe good values to our lifes. "The monk who sold his Ferrari " and "Who will cry when you die " were the other equally inspiring books i read....nearly a year back though ! good ! I read such books also apart from the novels,dramas and magazines !well today got a copy of "Megaliving" by Robin Sharma....so this will do for another 2 days ( taking into account my increased laziness ) so not bad na coming back to track ;) yes this is for myself all i feel,all i think !